We are T Minus 15 hours until the big day...I start my new job and Jackson goes to daycare. I'm starting to have mixed feelings about this. Have I made the right decision; new hospital, new policies, new people? Will Jackson transtion to day care? Will I have constant fits of regret for leaving him? I guess being the type A personality that I am I wasn't thinking this was going to be so hard. I don't want to miss a smile, a laugh, him rolling over...anything. I know that this is the best decision for our family not only financially but also as a whole. I do better working; I enjoy my job and what I do and that will only help make our family stronger.
Now the other big thing on my mind...what is wrong with my baby? He does so good sleeping through the night *knock on wood*. But for some reason unknown to me or his dad when the "tarnished" (cause gold is too nice of an adjective) hour hits he melts down. Typically Jackson wakes up about 830 (sometimes earlier). He gets a 4 oz bottle and is a happy little bug. Then by 1030 his starts screaming. So ok I give him another 2 oz and the meltdown continues. I'm thinking is it fighting a nap, is he hungry, is he in pain? I'm contemplating adding just a bit of rice cereal to his bottle. He doesn't have these melt downs at night nearly like he did. But he will typically scream, fuss, and cry from 1030 until he falls asleep but he never takes a good nap of the afternoon he fights it and will wake up in about 45 mins and it starts all over again. I'm wondering if the little bit of rice cereal will help him stay satisfied. I'm read info saying both yes and no. I guess we can give it a shot, if it works YEA..if not we go back to what we were doing. I'm worried the poor girls at the daycare will kick him out or worse ignore him because of his fits.
That's another worry of mine. Are these women going to love and take care of him the way I would? I'm feeling 80% that this daycare is going to be a good fit. Its a small infant room with two women; one older one my age who seem to really enjoy what they do. They document everything on the babies (when they eat, sleep, poop, play etc) and also build in enrichment activities as they get older. They also start on basic sign language such as more, please, mom, dad. I'm really hoping it will be a good fit. Part of the paperwork I filled out asked about your child, their preferences, etc so the staff can have an idea as to how the baby works. I just really hope this fits.
Well I better go get some bottles washed, laundry switched, and grocery list/meal plan done...a mothers work is never done! But I wouldn't trade this for the world
