Jackson Robert Arrives

On July 7th 2011 at 4:34 pm Jackson Robert made his much anticipated arrival into our lives. After having been induced and experiencing the amazing world of childbirth Jackson was finally in my arms. Unfortunately he was then taken to NICU for being a little sluggish, personally I think he's just laid back and they were worried cause he wasn't crying all that much. As I have since learned he only cries when he needs to and soothes easily.

These last 2 weeks have been such a learning experience. When to sleep? How to manage the house? Can I go out and do things like I use to, lunch shopping etc? So far we have had a fairly uneventful two weeks. We were on a bili light up until yesterday so this made adjusting a bit more difficult. I wasn't prepared to come home and have to keep my child on a glow worm light. Makes it kind of difficult to maneuver life. Thankfully we came off the light and things have started to smooth out a bit. Jackson still has his days and nights backwards. He has a tendancy to be wide awake around 10pm and 230am. I am working on putting him on a schedule but of course that isn't always possible. I have to remember that babies don't come with an instruction manual or rule book. For someone like myself who has a bit of control issues this has been a hard hurdle to jump. When he cries I run through all the possibilities; is he wet, hungry, stomach upset, or maybe he just needs to cry. This has been the hardest. I don't want him to cry. I know its perfectly ok if he does and sometimes he just needs to cry but it still breaks my heart. I want to protect him and hearing him cry is the hardest thing.

Sunday will be the open house welcoming Jackson Robert. There will be lots of family and friends here. I look forward to seeing everyone and enjoying this special time with them.