Does this make me an adult?

I've asked myself that question alot lately. I have achieved some of my most important goals in life. Getting a degree and starting my career. Marrying the best friend and husband a girl could ask for. Buying a home. Having a baby. But the question "am I an adult" still rings in my ear. So I've set myself up for the biggest challenge yet....THANKSGIVING DINNER! If I succeed in pulling off this feast I think that officially puts me in adulthood!

"This too shall pass" a phrase I have been saying alot to myself lately. Talk about anxiety and nerves. My poor little munchkin who is full of smiles and giggles has also been full of vinegar and grouchyness lately. One minute he is the cutest little thing around, the next I swear his head is gonna spin in circles cause he has morphed into a monster; crying, screaming, and virtually unconsolable. We have tried walking, bouncing, singing, letting him cry and it seems like nothing works. Then the fit stops and quickly as it starts, though to his dad and I it feels like it goes on for hours. Not sure what is causing all this but it is very testing to our patience. I love this little guy but there are sometime that I really don't like him (hey he's my kid its ok I'm sure there will be lots of days over the course of his life that I feel the same way lol). So as these fits come and go I just remind myself as I'm gently walking that "This too shall pass."

Happy Thanksgiving to All!

Will let you know how mine turns out!

My poor Baby

I have decided I hate TEETHING! Poor thing one minute is laughing and the next he's screaming. Now we are fighting a fever too. All I want to do is lay around and cuddle, though all night wasn't so much fun last night. He didn't want to sleep and everytime I laid him in his bed he woke up cause he's also all congested, so in the recliner we slept, but only for 2 hour increments. Poor little guy.

I'm slowling gearing up for the Holiday Season. This year I will be working Christmas Day which isn't soo bad, but thankfully I should have next Christmas off. Our family hasn't really been a stickler for the day, as long as we are all together that is Christmas to us. Heck last year Christmas came about the 12th of January

Last weekend was so much fun. We went on our first family roadtrip and saw family in Kenosha. Had an amazing time with the Aunts and Grandma Forman. Even got to raid the recipe box (though Aunt Deb wouldn't let me at all of them). Jackson did really well slept most of the way up and managed to go back to bed around 1230. Though he wasn't big on his pack n play so he got spoiled and got to sleep with us (which I totally against the rules in our house). Needless to say by Sunday we were already to be home and back to a normal routine.

This weekend is just gonna be a lazy one. Other than the weekly grocery shopping I have a feeling we won't be out of our PJs much.

More to come!

Someone Loves his Great Grandma!

I finally get it

18 weeks ago Jackson entered our lives. Over these past few months I have felt so many emotions from excitement to frustration but I finally understand what all of it meant. This little guy is ours. Rich and I are forever bound by this boy. He has changed our life so much and in so many ways. I use to worry about whether or not I was going to be a good mom (hell I still worry about that) but I have come to learn over the past few months that being a good mom isn't measured by the things you provide but by the love and memories you share. I can't wait to learn and grow with Jackson as a family. First christmas, first birthday, first tooth...all the important steps in life. Having traditions and making memories that he will carry with him is the best part of this whole parenting thing. Yes, I'm sure there will be just as many trying times as fun times but knowing that I have a husband who is my constant companion, who works with me, shares his ideas and feelings and who we are a united front only makes this even better.

I can't wait to experience this new life with Rich. I am so thankful I have him, so thankful for the life we have, and the days ahead.

Jackson is always growing, always changing, and each day brings more and more smiles, laughs and memories. I am so greatful that I have been blessed with this family.

Cameron is growing up and changing. Yes things are new for everyone but being able to be a part in his life and helping him choose the right path lets me know that as Jackson grows Rich and I will be that same united front. Cameron is so smart, caring, and mature for his wise old age of 12 that sometimes I forget he's still a kid. I'm thankful to have him as well.

So what have I really learned over the last 18 weeks. That for the first time I can say I am truly happy. I have an amazing family that I love unconditionally. I have a career that I feel I make a difference in peoples lives. And most of all I feel content that this is what I am meant to do. Be a mother, wife, and professional; it is possible.