I finally get it

18 weeks ago Jackson entered our lives. Over these past few months I have felt so many emotions from excitement to frustration but I finally understand what all of it meant. This little guy is ours. Rich and I are forever bound by this boy. He has changed our life so much and in so many ways. I use to worry about whether or not I was going to be a good mom (hell I still worry about that) but I have come to learn over the past few months that being a good mom isn't measured by the things you provide but by the love and memories you share. I can't wait to learn and grow with Jackson as a family. First christmas, first birthday, first tooth...all the important steps in life. Having traditions and making memories that he will carry with him is the best part of this whole parenting thing. Yes, I'm sure there will be just as many trying times as fun times but knowing that I have a husband who is my constant companion, who works with me, shares his ideas and feelings and who we are a united front only makes this even better.

I can't wait to experience this new life with Rich. I am so thankful I have him, so thankful for the life we have, and the days ahead.

Jackson is always growing, always changing, and each day brings more and more smiles, laughs and memories. I am so greatful that I have been blessed with this family.

Cameron is growing up and changing. Yes things are new for everyone but being able to be a part in his life and helping him choose the right path lets me know that as Jackson grows Rich and I will be that same united front. Cameron is so smart, caring, and mature for his wise old age of 12 that sometimes I forget he's still a kid. I'm thankful to have him as well.

So what have I really learned over the last 18 weeks. That for the first time I can say I am truly happy. I have an amazing family that I love unconditionally. I have a career that I feel I make a difference in peoples lives. And most of all I feel content that this is what I am meant to do. Be a mother, wife, and professional; it is possible.